Happy Birthday Tiffany

I cant believe my Tiffany would be 3 today.

DH asked me what I thought she would be doing today.  I stated, probably coloring my walls, since the economy is so bad and money is so tight". 

Today, I got up and lit a candle and song Happy Birthday to her.  Later MEND sent 3 long white roses.

DH asked if anyone called to let us know they thought of Tiffany today and I said "no". He then asked if my feelings we're hurt and I said "no".  I have "matured" in my grief...if that makes since.  I don't care if people remember (I am touched when they do).  I am not hurt if the phone doesn't ring or they don't leave a message on my facebook page. I understand their lives continue the clock keeps ticking and there is no reason for them to mark the 21st of June and the 21st of July on their calendar. 

Unless a loss touches a person directly there is no need for a person to remember my loss or anyone else's loss.....I am OK with it!

Anyways...Happy Birthday to my sweet Tiffany Pooh.  I still remember how you felt in my arms, your long skinny fingers (like your Aunt), you looked just like your Daddy, and you had your Mommy's toes. 

Bloodwork results

Well....

I received my bloodwork on yesterday...and they showed NOTHING!  I was let down, I thought the test would show the reason why I keep miscarrying, but it didn't. 

Could it be my age? Could it be my progesterone? Could it be......Could it be.....Could it be....

My doctor suggested that I continue to take my prenatal vitamins, a daily low dose asprian, and pray.  At this point there is no "solid" reason of why, so I feel so frustrated. 

Faith....the substance of things hope for the evidence of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1)....THIS IS ALL I CAN HOLD ON TO. With that being said, I step out on Faith and pray that the Lord answers my prayers and hears my cry and wipes away my tears.