I cant believe my Tiffany would be 3 today.
DH asked me what I thought she would be doing today. I stated, probably coloring my walls, since the economy is so bad and money is so tight".
Today, I got up and lit a candle and song Happy Birthday to her. Later MEND sent 3 long white roses.
DH asked if anyone called to let us know they thought of Tiffany today and I said "no". He then asked if my feelings we're hurt and I said "no". I have "matured" in my grief...if that makes since. I don't care if people remember (I am touched when they do). I am not hurt if the phone doesn't ring or they don't leave a message on my facebook page. I understand their lives continue the clock keeps ticking and there is no reason for them to mark the 21st of June and the 21st of July on their calendar.
Unless a loss touches a person directly there is no need for a person to remember my loss or anyone else's loss.....I am OK with it!
Anyways...Happy Birthday to my sweet Tiffany Pooh. I still remember how you felt in my arms, your long skinny fingers (like your Aunt), you looked just like your Daddy, and you had your Mommy's toes.
How sweet it is remembering exactly what your daughter looked like. It's interesting how your grief has matured. Maybe I will be there one day and stop expecting validation from others... then I will have more peace instead of pent up anger towards the whole world.
ReplyDeleteHappy Belated Bday, Tiffany.
Hello. I just found you blog through BLM Bloggers. I just wanted you to know that I just read your babies stories. Thank you for sharing Tiffany and Elizabeth (and Happy Birthday to Tiffany this month!). I'm so sorry for your loss and heartache and pray God's love and strength are a comfort to you.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Lynnette