Monday, May 16, 2011

Walking Away

I think it is time for me to walk away from this dream of having a child.  I cannot take this rollacoaster anymore.
I was so excited after having the TAC done in February.  I thought all of my dreams we're reachable.
But today, I went to the doctor knowing and realizing I was having  another miscarriage.  I am only 4.5 weeks so the doctor would not say I was and he would not say that I was not untill he can see the blood count from my second set of labs.  But I know this pregnancy is over....and at this point I think everything is over.
I dont think I can do this anymore...its just too hard...6 pregnancies in 3 years and no earth angels is just too much even for the strongest person to endure.