Today is Elizabeth's 2nd Birthday and Angel-day.
It has been a day full of emotions. I woke up this morning almost the exact time that my water broke 2 years ago. I opened my eyes with Elizabeth on my mind. I left the bedroom and went to the living room where I song Happy Birthday to Lizzy.I then lit a candle by her picture and picked up her urn which sits on the fireplace mantle along with Tiffanys.
I know its strange but I shook the urn so that I could hear her ashes move. I immediately broke down crying....it was weird because I heard her....I never thought I would be able to hear her again. At some point I fell asleep holding her urn in my arms.
When I woke up, my Hubby was up and sitting in the media room. He came to the living room and did the same thing as I....he picked up her urn from the mantle, took it into his hands stroked it, said happy birthday, and begin to go down the list of things he thought she would be doing today. It was touching to see and hear his love for her.
Later, the door bell rang and I knew it was the delivery man....my support group sends white roses for each year of birth/angel day. So we received 2 long stem white roses. I think I was crying before I even opened the door.
The day ended with my sister in law (Hubby's sister) calling checking on me.....SHE REMEMBERED.
I wish I could take away the pain that you are feeling. I'm sending you HUGS and hoping that you rest a bit easier tonight.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I am late for Elizabeth's birthday. Wow she would be two... I didn't realize how close in age she was to Joey. Joey will be two in October. That is so precious to have her ashes with you and your husband. To stroke her urn and to hear her ashes.... that is so special; something different from a burial. Thinking of you and you have a wonderful sis in law.
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